It would be an insult to baseball fans everywhere to put myself in the "fan" category, but the Royals are in the series, and I, like many others in my fair city, have become enthralled in the action. A baseball metaphor just seems appropriate... so, here goes.
Sometimes life throws you a curveball or two. Sometimes you take a swing and it all works out, and sometimes you just go after it and have to wait for the next pitch. I'm still in the heat of my re-adjustment period after leaving the road. In so many ways it feels awesome to be home and rebuilding my life. In others, it's extremely terrifying. To just be me after so many years of being under one umbrella is a very humbling experience. I'm back to all of my faults, and just trying to find the right leg to stand on. If something screws up, there's nobody to blame but me, and I've been busting my ass to cover all of my bases. (Okay. I promise that'll be the last of the baseball metaphors.)
All of that being said, I'm feeling pretty damn good. I got to see my daughter take her first steps! And even though she's finally figuring out how to walk, she still loves to have me carry her around while pointing and telling me all kinds of things that I can't understand. Despite me not speaking her language, she is very intent to fill me in on all of her latest findings, and I love it.
Business has been cruising along thus far. I've got 3 EP's and one record that I'm currently working on. Two of those I'm fully producing, engineering and mixing. Those two specifically are sounding good, and I'm finding myself learning a lot about who I am and how I work with others. It's made for a lot less time to work on my own music, but I'm learning to see these moments as collaborations, when they actually are, and figuring out how to place my voice amongst someone else's artwork. It's a delicate dance to take someone's songs and try to input your opinions and ideas. But when it works, it feels really really great. Trusting yourself in these situations is half the battle, when all you've done your whole life is be critical of anything that you've ever made. All in all I'm just trying to make people happy while doing something that also gives me joy. To still be making a living as a musician thus far feels like a huge victory. Here's to whatever's next. And at the risk of sounding like I'm fishing for work, (let's be real, we musicians are always fishing for work) if you've got a project that you need some help with, let me know. Odds are, I'd love to make some music with you.
Amidst all of these things, I'm trying to work out a timeline for actually releasing the "Mayor of Strawberry Hill, A Great Offer" EP. Although I've learned and re-vamped so much since I composed and recorded those tracks, they're still very important to me in a lot of ways. I feel like I still need to share them. More on that in the next installment, I'm sure.
Thank you all for the many texts, emails, comments, etc. about my new ventures. I truly appreciate all of your support. We all just keep moving forward, hoping for the best. As Tom Petty said, "Do something you really like, and hopefully it pays the rent. As far as I'm concerned, that's success."
Wishing everyone the very best.